Sofia (my cat) and I are in love. Yes the road was very rocky at the beginning and I had my fair share of doubts. But something shifted, and she likes me. Yahoo the endless comedy acts paid off and she comes around :)
But then I was stuck in this pickle!
"Okay so she likes me, and isn't under the couch 24/7. And I love her and am considerably attached at this point.. so what do I do?!? This feline will live for at least 15 more years...should I look for another family who is more stable?!? Is my little apartment big enough??! Oh the decisions..."
So I started praying over this life changing commitment, and the little ball of fluff so dear to my heart.
And then we had a moment. Sofia was lying on my bed, looking into my eyes with her beyond adorable, whiskered face and my heart welled up with such love I literally bent down to her eye level and said.
"I love you. And I am committed to this friendship/relationship/love bond, no matter what it takes."
She meowed, and stretched, and it was set in stone. Peace and joy filled the room and my heart. End of story. Now you get to enjoy never ending pictures and stories of ma baby.
Secondly, I GOT A NEW BIKE.
The reason I am even sharing this, is because of my last post about Mrs. Mexican and the heart break she brought me.
This is my life... don't you love it? You get to embark on the crazy adventures of hearing about my cat, my bike and my Jesus.... Haha good enough for meeeee. Anyways my new girl runs like a champ and has a basket and everything. I barely drive my car any more and its' amazing. She has fulfilled every bike fantasy I could have asked for. Thanks for all your support.
Today I am going to a wedding, and I am giddy with excitement.
Attending weddings should be my job.
If I had a dollar for every beautiful white dressed ceremony I have been to/ sung at, I would have too much money for my own well-being.
But I love them all the same!
Because of the simple fact of me being a girl, the giddiness comes from having something to get dressed up for, going to an event centered around LOVE (can't get any better) and me being able to fantasize about my own future wedding 3/4th of the time.
"Oh! loooove those flowers! Mine will probably be a shade lighter with some pink... Oh my the venue is to die forrrrr. Awh look at how he's looking at her! I wonder if my man will look at me the same way... wait...maybe he's here.... " blah blah blahddy blah the gushing goes on. But we women do it, whether you can openly admit to the fantasizing, or not.
Can you imagine for a second that you find the. man. of. your. dreams. and marry him. (or the woman, to the men reading this blog.)
He is the apple of your eye and you are his. The ceremony is perfect and the vows that come from his lips are more than you could have asked for.
The months after are good, and then you fall into a deadly spiral that you never ever imagined you ever would. He remains your everything, but he seems to be consumed in his own world, moved into another room, and when he comes to you the conversation goes something like this:
" Hey honey.. I know we haven't talked in a couple days.. But I just want to start with saying that I love you and you are so beautiful.. Um do you think it would be possible to have you make my favorite spaghetti tonight, with that spicy tomato sauce I like? That would make my day sooo much better. And maybe you can start wearing that one perfume I like again, so that when we do cross paths I enjoy the scent? And if you wouldn't mind cleaning up my room because I created this huge mess and really need your help straightening it out. Yea, okay, I think that's all for now. Great! See you later then, love you!!"
This would break your heart because your undying love for him hasn't changed. It would be devastating if he was verbally saying he loved you, and instead of equally giving you his life in return, was asking you to do things just to make his life better knowing you loved him so much.
Even when our love is sincere we can so easily fall into a relationship like this with Jesus. (I share this because I have been so convicted about my own relationship with Him)
We have all heard this type of sermon many times, but we need to because we as lame humans do this! We create this false idea of how we want Jesus to be. Our sweet little blue pill we take as a daily supplement. An add on to our lives, the way we choose to live them. Instead of treating him as the true Messiah who deserves absolutely all of us. (for those of you at adorn last night, this was PERFECTLY put by Lazo)
"God it would be so sweet if you could just do this! Make this happen! My life would just come so perfectly together!"
" Lord it's been a while I know.. But I really need you to straighten this out for me."
If it's devastating for us to think about this happening to our husband/wife, its 100000 times more heart breaking for God who loves us without measure.
He loves us more than to let us settle for a mediocre, slot machine relationship with Him.
Think about this today. He is always and forever over the moon for you.
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