waitingandwanting

We are all waiting and wanting. All the time.


"Gosh once I just have this thing! Life will be better" 
-Once I get that coffee in my hand.. ("what is taking them so long anyways?!") 
-Once I get thinner (just one more pound!) and get some shopping done..
-Once I get married..MY LIFE WILL ACTUALLY BEGIN!
-Once I land that job, things will pick up for me. 


I do this always, all the time. I am so guilty, it's sick. 
My brain is constantly immersed in a pool of waiting and wanting, and wanting and waiting. For the next best thing. 
Our human society has this sick "bigger and better" disease. Where we are convinced that more things we get the happier and more satisfied we will become. It's like we've been spoon fed "dissatisfaction" since we were babies, and it's all our flesh knows. 


When's the last time buying a new pair of steve madden shoes with the sequence on them, or an ipod with even your name engraved on the back made your heart truly more satisfied? Or did you just wake up the next morning hungrier than the last. 
All these things are blessings and are fun! (Trust me, I like these things!)But they just do not play a role in the cure of making the heart more satisfied. 
I know it's engraved in all of us, but God came to break and transform our hearts and all of our thinking. We should only be truly waiting on Him, and wanting more of Him. He is the only thing that satisfies. Not the neighbor's cool 4 wheeler.


Here's an even bigger problem: As women we somehow have this weird idea that (truly) when we get married our lives actually begin. Like it's this life goal! For real. 
Everything before is just a practice take. "And CUT! you're almost ready for the big screen Suzy, just a few more years." 


This isn't true!


It's finding the balance of knowing and accepting that God created our hearts how they are. Relational: wanting a companion and love, and having those caring, motherly skills built in. Which is such a beautiful design!
But also realizing that our ultimate goal on earth is to glorify JESUS in all that we do, not to find a husband. Trusting that if we are all meant to get married, He has that all taken care of. 
Our priority should be seeking Him and living for Him.
Again I am so here. Any time a "Oh my gosh really...another year still single?!", or any of these "false identity" thoughts cross my mind, I have to lay them at the feet of Jesus.


Don't get me wrong here. Marriage is ordained by God and it's only natural that we desire it and get excited over it. 
It's just understanding the truth of the big picture, that Jesus is first always. 


GIRLS: SOAK IN THE SWEETNESS OF YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW.DON'T GET CAUGHT IN THE NEXT BEST THING. GO ON CRAZY ADVENTURES, LAUGH WITH YOUR FRIENDS, LOVE LIKE CRAZY, AND FIND ABSOLUTE JOY IN THE SEASON YOU ARE IN, THIS MOMENT.  cus it won't be forever :)